by Euro on Tue Apr 29, 2008 2:39 pm
My plan is not to look ever again for a pornsite or naked girls. I never ever want to shake again. Today I just think that it´s ugly. Everything that has to do with naked and sex is complete ugly. This is the first time I see it like this. Yesterday I was all day in the internet and watched this and that. That was to much. I thought: "Wow, look at this! Wow, look at that! Crazy shit! Wow! She is so hot and she taked 4 guys at one time! And wow, look at this girl! Even more horny and she does this and that! Wow..." - you know, this was a crazy day. I was very happy with all that but now I see it a bit different like yesterday. You get totally high, like on a drug. You just want sex and with all girls you see. It´s like you´re on drugs. You need it. So now I just want to be normal again. I love it still, but my brain says that it was a bit to much. I mean, I´m a guy and I know all guys like naked girls and sex. Just normal and good, but there is a normal life beside this, ok? And I just had this in my head (naked girls and sex) and this isn´t good. It was like - "Hey my life is sad and shit, but I feel happy again when I see sex!". For many guys it´s like that. I know that. But the cool thing, is - that I notice this. Many guys just do it till their life is just one big masturbation! Today I played chess and eat good (a big cheeseburger - wow it tasted so great!) and later I will buy me a new book. I need something new to read. Something about psychology. I wanted to study psychology. Now I do it at home for my own. I know that it´s easy to get all this out of the head for about 3 or 5 days. But than you see beautiful sexy girls downtown. They make you horny and when you don´t masturbate it´s even more difficult. I try it. 22 days was the best I coul do. 22 days without masturbating and naked girls on the internet. I was on a travel-tour with my best buddy and we two were freaks at the end believe me! We just had sex in our heads! This is to difficult for a guy, not to think about sex, totally absurd almost. But I learned that you get trough that - a free mind and you feel better, you aren´t than a slave anymore that need´s an orgasm to feel better. You just do something else. Play chess or read books or buy yourself cool clothes or you write what you think about life. I try to do that: Not to masturbate anymore. A girlfriend I don´t find anyway, so it should be easier for me. But I wish you all a nice day with masturbating. My favourite girls were Taylor Rain, Mindy Vega, Alektra Blue, Simone Diamond, Elektra Angels and Destiny. Ok, and the other 4.000 hot girls! It´s a shame. There are so many other girls I don´t know the names. You just see them on this great pornsides were they have about 10.000 videos you can watch for free. I love it. But I try to come down and get again a normal person.
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Euro on Tue Apr 29, 2008 2:52 pm, edited 1 time in total.